As an introvert, working with others is one of the hardest things.

I often feel misunderstood.

I can’t deal with people’s emotions.

I have a hard time to compromise.

BUT, it doesn’t have to be an excuse.

Working by myself is 10x easier and faster,

in so many ways.

However, I only have a certain amount of time and mental bandwidth every day.

So I learned that to go further, I had to learn how to work together with others.

– Learning how to express myself in a way they can understand

– Understanding people’s emotions, and accepting the difference with mines

– Knowing when to welcome ideas from others, and when to be stubborn

Sometimes (often?), I have an impulse of shutting everything down, telling everybody to f*ck off,

and get back to “doing my things on my own”.

But I know this impulse, I understand it and accept it as part of who I am.

When I feel the frustration, the feeling of being lonely and misunderstood,

the need to give up and throw everything away,

I don’t resist it.

I accept this as part of the journey, and I allow myself to give up and to tell everybody to f*ck off.

BUT,

not today.

I can give up, yes,

but ONLY after the next good day.

Because after the next good day, I remember,

why I am doing all of this in the first place.

My heart is back, to where it belongs,

My mind is still, sharp and clear.

And when I think again, of giving up,

It just looks like an old bad dream.

I know it was there, I know I felt it.

But today is brighter.

Today isn’t a day to dwell on last night’s nightmares,

Today is a day to make dreams happen.